Self-Doubt

It’s possible that each of us at some point in our lives has suffered from a little or a lot of self-doubt.

I don’t know if it’s because I am a LIBRA or if it’s just a normal woman behavior or if it’s a normal human behavior, but now and then I am consumed with self-doubt. During a time like this it is nearly impossible to make a decision. I go back and forth in my head or sometimes even a list on paper with all of the positive and negatives of even the most menial decision. Ugh!

Lately I’ve been searching the aisles of stores for Christmas things, for baby things, for birthday things (and anyone who knows me, hanging out in stores shopping is not one of my favourite past times). I have recently designed baby gifts and Christmas gifts and wedding gifts. Believe me when I say, that if I decide to make something as a gift it is no easy task. I am never happy. I can go through many drafts and spend many, many, many hours at it until I think it’s acceptable; but as soon as I package it up and give it away, I panic because I believe it is not good enough. Sometimes homemade gifts are a hit, but sometimes I’m afraid I’m off the mark.

One thing I know for sure is that every gift I give is from the heart. I don’t always have the right words to say. I don’t always give the right gift. I don’t always do the right thing at the right time. Basically, sometimes my choices of gifts, my choice of words or my decisions on anything are just downright wrong.

If you happen to be at the end of one of these bad decisions, please believe me when I say it is always with my best intentions. Sometimes, I/we make mistakes. As I've heard myself tell people many times...if you make a bad decision, it's OK...do the best you can with the information you have; and if you find out it's the wrong choice, move on. Yes, Lisa, listen to your own advice...move on. learn from your mistakes. do better next time.

TODAY: I intend to finish lesson 3 from my class which will be tough because it has a “childlike” quality that is hard to convert to something else, and I must clean up a little around here because rumour has it the most important person in my life will be pulling in sometime later on. There isn’t much at all on my “do to” today, because I plan on being decisive all day long.

This, my friends, is going to be a day of peace, tranquility and relaxation that will end with a hug that releases any stress or self-doubt this girl is hanging onto.